Some of them I've seen once or twice in the past year because of the "holing up" which took place as the depression deepened. I feel as if I will be on display or something tonight. None of these people know anyone else who has had ECT most likely. I'm the specimen for their collection. These friends are all about the warmest most non-judgemental people you can imagine, but I still worry.
I still regret not seeing some good friends who moved back to Wisconsin while I was "all about Kayly." I feel deep sadness about losing such good and decent friends. I know we can still exchange emails, cards, etc., but it's not the same as New Year's Eve parties, drop-bys, and other various invitations.
My nervousness is extending to what clothes and shoes to wear and how to do my hair and whether or not to put makeup on. These are not concerns I usually have when I see my friends. I've even come up with conversation topics, in case conversation is awkard and lags. Here is the list so far:
- Obama
- Obama
- the PA primary
- Obama
Yeah, I'm a little one-track-minded lately. Nervous about 4/22, too.
4 comments:
Kayly...Denny and I talked about your ECT after Easter dinner and believe me, you won't have anything to worry about. First of all, as you said..this is a group of warm, caring FRIENDS. Secondly...you are sooooo much better they can't help but be impressed.
What you wear doesn't matter, nor does the makeup....it'll all be ok!
Love,
Mom
You'll be fine! The side ponytail is hella cute, though. You should totally rock it.
I'm currently rockin' bilateral pig tails, btw. And red flats. At first I thought it was a little to Dorothy-ish, but I don't care!
Yeah... it went great! And yes, the topics of conversation--at least the interesting ones--centered around Obama. Too bad tix ran out so early for his Sunday evening Forum appearance :-(
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